Of the many things I do in this school, I have one major, nonacademic goal for the rest of my senior year. I want to get over my fear of singing in public. I've always been terrified of the thought of people hearing me sing, especially in a school with a music department that won a Grammy. However, the other day as we were learning the musical games in Comedy Sportz (which I initially dreaded), a thought hit me. Why am I so critical of myself?
After my revolutionary question was proclaimed inside my head, my mental experts went to work on an answer. Needless to say, they didn't find any proper reasons why I am so critical of my singing. So, I took that thought and ran with it. During the 7:30 show, I sang in public for the first time. It wasn't even that nerve wracking because I didn't think about it. It was a huge step forward for me.
Now that I am starting to control my fear, I feel more inclined to participate in things like battle of the bands. Seriously I signed up. Granted, Benjy Wax and I are only planning on doing a rap, but it's still a step in the right direction. I am no choir superstar, but I am on my way to accomplishing one of my goals for senior year.
I sort of have this same fear. And when I do sing in public (or at least around a group of friends), I sing in an over-embellished voice in order to portray myself as silly and try to get people to believe that I don't take myself seriously. I could never do a serious vocal solo because I just lack the confidence to even do one. My voice cracks, I lose breath very easily, and it's just safer for me to act like a fool who doesn't care because I fear judgement. I congratulate you and wish you luck in conquering your fear.
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